My Very Own Halloween Party

Jesmen's Halloween party:



_no_legs dressed as the Marquis of Bauman-Entwisle.

afraidxofxnoise dressed as Master Shake.

anna_nicole_jr dressed as a dull ideal.

chaos_drive dressed as a raccoon.

dirt_dirt_dirt dressed as Madonna.

drivemethru dressed as a cigar.

invisibleblue gets drunk, strips naked, and somehow emerges dressed as Dick Cheney.

kagetardxorz dressed as a character from "Schindler's List".

luvahtits dressed as Grover Cleveland.

made__of__glass dressed as the love child of Bono and Sarah Michelle Gellar.

operakitty dressed as something drunk, but what, specifically, you can't tell.

russianbigmac dressed as someone called "Clifton Galbraith", but you've never heard of them before, and it suited them all too well.

see_love_kill dressed as a chair, and it suited them all too well.

senttotown dressed as Nicole Kidman's brother.

sixtysix_crush dressed as a skeleton.

slipnslydsuicyd dressed as Optimus Prime.

steadfastownzu dressed as a new member of the Wu-Tang Clan, Thunderous Watcher.

tested_positive dressed as the Governor of Florida.

triphop dressed as the spirit of their dead grandmother Gertrude.

what_do_i_get77 dressed as Worf from "Star Trek", and it suited them disturbingly well.

What a good timing.

I'm in a deep shit condition for the DanceWork audition, which I have been feeling anxious about tomorrow morning. What a good timing.

Seems like we are not wishing on the same star.

I will...move on.

Birthday Dedications.

Wah... Received a NUM Tee from Intan today. It was bought by Angela, Tessa, Intan and Sebastian. So nice. I love the tee. I love the brand even more. So thoughtful of them. Must be Tessa's idea. Thank you guys. Received wishes from my classmates also. Mmm... Today should be a happy day. Just can't let the horrible project work spoil my special day. We had been working for nearly 12 hours in school. Oh god... Going to meet my important souls now. Bye bye (I'm wearing the NUM Tee now) Wow... "short gun", but mine is sure way scary and amazing than this. Hee...

My Special Birthday Eve With My Special Someone

The night was tiring for me. However, I was lucky to be accompanied by this anonymous. Ha ha. No one will know he is my bro., oops... Ha ha! You are exposed!

I went to TCC cafe` for the first time. Thanks to him. I was rather full then because of the late lunch, but the food there were sure tempting. I love the cheesecake there. Oh my god! It was so soft and dense. My kind of cheesecake. Thanks to him. So, we ordered American Cheesecake, Macaroni Gratin for me and Potato Munchies for him (he's under a vegetarian diet now). There came the funny part. I took out my little Xian Xian from my pocket and started taking pictures of him with the food (under his consentment). Hee... Hope no one saw it because I felt embarrassed for him, having a crazy and kiddy Di.
Look! Xian Xian looked so so cute there!!! I can't love him enough! Look at the picture of him sitting beside the cheescake. He must be aiming at the cake, trying to grab a bit before I finished it. He was surrounded by good food. That was lucky of him. Xian Xian was also finally able to see the real big version of him, who is my bro.. Wahaha! He was aiming at the potato balls as well. He even succeeded in lying beside my macaroni. Look at the extend he craved for those alluring food. Again, he tried to lie close to the plate of cheesecake when we were about to finish. He wanted to seize the last chance to get hold of the last bit of cheesecake. Ha ha!!! How cunning, but he looked really adorable there. They are both the same. My lovely ones.
This was the receipt. We were unable to get discount because we didn't spend over $20 for the net price of our orders. He couldn't get any discount from his new membership card. We should have ordered more. Just that 10 cents more. Oh gosh! Haha. However he told me it doesn't matter as long as we have had a happy meal. I was certainly happy then. Thanks to him again. We should try to hit the $20 point next time round.
I was very touched and surprised when, he gave me something before he went off. I thought the meal was already good enough. He was very thoughtful. I was really touched by his thoughtfulness. I really thank him in my heart. I think he knew about how felt then because I went a bit off in space. Ha ha. Hope he did. So that was the end of the day. Anyway, I received a thumb drive from him. Wo ho! I need that now! Aiyo! I can't thank him enough. He certainly knows how to please me. Thank you for your care and concern...

It's really late now. Hmm... I have to restore my energy for tomorrow's school.

A Fallen Angel

Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.

Image is a painting by Natalya Nesterova,
source:ca80.lehman.cuny.edu/.../
images/fallen_angel.jpg


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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Myself

Warmth 42%
Intellect 58%
Emotional Stability 54%
Aggressiveness46%
Liveliness 50%
Dutifulness 58%
Social Assertiveness 54%
Sensitivity 74%
Paranoia 50%
Abstractness 78%
Introversion 54%
Anxiety 54%
Openmindedness 58%
Independence 78%
Perfectionism 54%
Tension 34%

I'm touchy and soft, strange and imaginative, a loner and crave solitude.

I'm usually relaxed and calm. Yah, I don't really feel much stress in school. Probably the carefree species.

Challenge in the Rain

Why am I feeling like this. I feel little bits of sadness setting in slowly into me. The feeling of lonliness, which is so sudden. I should feel happier than this for this period right? This special period of mine. That's really weird. Still, it is so clear that I will be facing don't what shit again. Oh, I thought I had just gotten out of that turmoil. The frequent raining these days have made more intense. The little bits accumulating, forming into a stronger source that will not be easily gotten rid of.

There's another one thing that has been in my mind. It's about Leandro. He seems to have prepared things for me from London and also have plan for my celebration when he comes back, which will be today. I should feel honoured and grateful, but I'm not. All this period, I have always been feeling like doing my duty whenever I'm with him. A feeling like repaying all the things he had done for me. I don't feel attached, no I'm not. I will be so bad if I decide to cancel all that he had planned for me. On the other hand, I will be wasting his time and my energy if I just keep quiet and go on like this. Oh... I really think i should feel happier around this time.

I don't blame anyone or anything, even that there's always this something in my mind. I will not say and I will not wish for anything, because I know fate decides it all. I think this is just me. The typical me. Everyone around me seems to have something in their mind, taxing them. In this point of time, I wish them all the best dealing with the inevitable challenges ahead. As for me, this old box seems not to be able to hold me for long. Where can i find my reliable and willing box. I can't stay for long.

I still think I should feel happier...it's raining outside. It's my kind of whether.

Cuties!!!

So 'ke ai'. There they were, playing together while Yim, Wendy and I were dining at Marche. They were as united as us. Happy happy!!! I will bring my Xian Xian out often to play with them. (he's sitting on my keyboard now) Hee. . .

Last Triple Force Outing

Yeah!!! Soon, Pei will be back. She will be shocked i guess, because we have become even crazier, much crazier than before. Ha ha ha! Waterfall Chua! Wahahaha!



Yesterday, we when to Orchard for our lunch at Marche. Our activities did follow our plan intially, with lunch followed by photo taking at our usual photo prints shop at The Heeren. I brought along my lovely little Xian Xian with me yesterday. Took a picture of him and Wendy's "Yu4 Mi3 Tai4 Lang2" in the bus. It was raining heavily outside. Look at the background. The raindrops look a bit like firework here.

The sad thing is that, I lost it when we were taking photo prints. I put him in the machince area and I forgot to bring him out after we finished. Oh... He was probably taken by other customers. Kinda sad because we didn't even spend a full 24 hours together. He was gone way to fast, and I didn't expect that to happen. Our plan got distorted after that. Anyway, our photo prints weren't in any way fabulous. I decided to buy another one as a replacement. So, we went to Hush Hush at Ngee Ann City. Sold out!!! He's no where to be found there. Oh... I want Xian Xian back!!! Then I got to know the other outlet other than the Bugis one. There is one at Suntec City. We really went there. Yim and Wendy were also sad about my lost. It was a little unnecessary for that to happen. Fortunately, the Suntec outlet still have some left. I got my Xian Xian replaced! Ok, from now I should forget about the previous one and pretend as if I didn't misplace Xian Xian. Okok. Glad that I coulb be able to get Xian Xian back. See? I like him so much. He's so so so so cute.

The night included activities like the taking of photos usig Yim's camera, the shooting of catwalk videos starring Yim and I, and lastly the ultimate dinner of 煮炒. Pei missed a lot of things in these 2 weeks. Ha ha ha! Just only these two outings, we managed to do quite some activities. Most importantly...... we encountered soem real laugh inducing incidents. Just thinking of "Uncle Amuro" and "Waterfall Chua" makes me wanna roll on the ground and laugh out loud. "Tomorrow you will be back." "Welcome home!"

A Moment Like The Waterfall

A moment like this

Some people wait for the waterfall

A moment like this

Some people search for 蔡瀑布

A moment like this

I can't believe

The waterfall in front of me

Some people wait a lifetime

For the 蔡瀑布

The fame of Chua

Washable Chua - 蔡洗得掉

Watermelon Chua - 蔡西瓜

Water-chestnut Chua - 蔡马蹄

Wedding Chua - 蔡结婚

Wallet Chua - 蔡钱包

Weak Chua - 蔡虚弱

Weapon Chua - 蔡武器

Wrinkle Chua - 蔡皱纹

Window Chua - 蔡寡妇

Wireless Chua - 蔡无线

FEATURING THE LEGENDARY

WATERFALL CHUA PEI ZHEN

蔡瀑布

OBTAINING

P.H.D. IN WATERFALLOGY

Created by: Jesmen

Wendy

Janet

(Waterfall's "lao peng yous")

New companion...Xiao JX

I don't want to talk about project work. So, I will just skip it.

Today after school, I was about to leave when I passed the indoor basketbell court. Pong pong pong! Sound of the basketball bouncing. Our school basketballers were training diligently. The view of it, let me just wanted to stay put for a minute. Just standed there and watched the people moving and listen to that familiar sound from the shoes and ball. Felt a cold rush in me. I couldn't care more, bacause I had left all things away. It was just that I'm missing. Then after so and so, which I don't really bother to say here (too tired now). A few classmates and I reached Bugis Junction. We were browsing through shops when we came along this little shop playing "游牧民族" by Gigi. Oh god! The world seems wanting to keep reminding me. Then one of my classmates was alerting me about this song playing. She knows it.

I decided to buy a cute little elephant from Hush Hush. This tiny blue elephant's name is "Xiao JX". Don't ask me why. A name is a name. I just needed it, so that I can bring it with wherever I go. It is so small. Take a look. So ke ai. Kawai ne!!! Xiao JX will accompany me from now on. At least i will feel better. Psychological effect I see. Hush Hush sure sells expensive things. Some of the things there are rather amazing not because of the products, but the price tags attached to them. Aiyo! They are all Japanese goods. So, I can understand. Like Muji.
Here's another picture of Xiao JX with Aisha on the left and Shoyru on the right. Look at Aisha. She was rather happy when I introduced them my new friend. Look at the way she smiled, tilting her head sideway towards Xiao JX. And Shoyru also, with that hidden smile there. I knew he would like to have new friends, though he's too introvert. If you observe Xiao JX more, you will notice the pink bell dangling on his right ear lope. What a nice thing to go along with. He's simply adorable. He's so simple in design. I think he certainly stands out in the picture. I will love you more.

Don't be angry ok. I know you prefer puppies much more than this.

Then, along my way home, when I reached my block. There the girls were, training and playing basketball at my block as usual (trainings always happen here, boys and girls, and the coach leaves just beside my unit). They were good, and they reminded me of something again...

The end, but the beginning.

I just had my very last paper for this year's promotional examination. Oh, that was rather taxing for me. During that 3 hours, I was thinking why is it so tough and different from usual. Must be Mrs. Wan wanting to give us a shock. I saw many frownings, some even cried. For me, I just take it easy, because I'm always carefree in this studies. No stress at all, or maybe a little, stress about waking up to go to school. Wahaha! Exam has ended, and now project work. Oh god, I dislike that. Wish it could be made easier for us, by both the setter and the school. So disgusting! Have to live with that I guess for the next few weeks.

I'm thinking of cheesecake and mango cake. Anyone wants to satisfy my cravings? I will get them myself anyway. Oh...cheesecake. Oh mango cake. I cannot have enough. I want it from you. Yes, you. Ha ha, crazy. See, I'm carefree. People are so stress now, but I can still have the mood to talk about my craving for these cakes. I want them soon!!!

Change my mindset?

I think it's not too bad to give this a try. The love for game, for excitement, with no string attached. I'm only 19, prime in certain aspect. How can I not do it. I will see for now with the people in hand. Or maybe I should be a good boy. Ha ha, don't know. Let love lead the way, which means i will most probably not be a naughty boy. Wahahahaha!!!

The New Gang!!!

Uncle uncle you are famous, oh uncle.

You are uncle uncle Uncle Amuro!

With Super Tigers...

Triple Force

On Saturday, we had our triple force outing (without Pei, as she went oversea at this current period). The day started with our usual KTV session at Sunlight City, followed by a string of shopping for clothings and even more, food food food! Ha ha! That was more like a festive day for food. Bought food at British Takeaways, Long Jong Silver, Shi Lin, dinner at a Japanese eating place, and finally Mcdonalds back over at Bukit Panjang Plaza. I bought a nice shirt with pink, grey and white stripes on it at Far East Plaza. I'm going to have more clothes in my wardrobe. The fun part came when we were having dinner at Cineleisure. We were enjoy ourselves with the food and the usual crazy small talks, until I noticed this uncle, seemingly the boss there over the counter staring into the air. "A Moment Like This", which Yim sang earlier during KTV session just came across my mind. A moment like this, a moment to daydream during work, a moment to escape busy life. Ha ha ha! This supposingly unnoticed picture by other had caused a laugh inducing stir among us. Ha ha. Then I was singing that song and pointing towards that uncle for Yim and Wendy. We even tried to take down photos of him day dreaming, and his signature pose, which was putting of hands on the counter, stand stationary, and having the fierce, but worrying look as if he had just realised how bad he have been treating his wife, or how is he going to bring in illegal drugs or something. Whahahaha! We were damn crazy and 'bo liao', like we had nothing better to do. We decided to edit the photo, putting his picture and our individual pictures together. It is going to be a laughing stock, like the so called smiling passport photo of Pei. Our activity ended after we chatted for about one hour plus back over Bukit Panjang's Mcdonalds. I had to eat one more burger to call it a day for my consumption for the day. We had not been chatting like this for sometime already. Ha ha. Late in the night, nothing much left to do for the day, and just sit there over a small table and talk about everything. We could just go on and on till the next day. Ha ha ha! So many things to talk about. The was still fun even we didn't have our full force (without Pei). However, we king of lost our standard in taking photo prints. It just didn't turn out to be of equal standard with our previous photo prints taken two weeks ago, which were really amazing. Have to update more on our outings to Pei when she gets back. Guess we will have one more outing next week before Pei returns. Oh my god. We are just going to be crazier and crazier. Hee... And we kept singing my songs for that day. I was a little surprised that they sang "Chua Chua". Oh nice nice nice, not forgetting "Scary Boss", "Janet or Yim Hor", and the all along popular "C H U A P E I Z H E N (选男人要选好的)". Outing is always when with my gang.

Something hidden, which I started to realise.

Sometime, this thing that I never realised just comes to my mind and go like that. I used to think I'm independent and also a loner. There were occasions however, that made me lost control. I'm used to being alone considering the fact that I'm an only child. Yet, the another me made me realised at times how weak I am. Like others, I will have the urge to be attached to certain people. This show how much I like the person. So much that I can't bear to leave for just a while. Then again, I will be selfish if I insist on this. With the constrain of certain situation, I should hold on and don't let my desire blind me. Again, thinking about how you can get this and that just show how little you care for the person. I could be more supportive. I have had a good lesson. And I've learned. Thank you lesson. You stop me from falling deeper into my own inner turmoil. Thank you lesson. I can finally enjoy my life a bit now. Thank you lesson, for letting me awknowledge this. Time will sort things out. And I'm sure by then, we all will be lighter with our loads. Thank you. I never thought I could step on this, finally. Step it down. I'm in control of myself for the right not to taste a single sorrow, for the right to stay free and happy.

Let's wait for the month that may fill hope, December.

Gonna enjoy a bit.

The first half of my exam is coming to an end after tomorrow. I will be going out with Yim and Wendy on Saturday. Yeah!! Triple Force! After that, I will revert back to study mode for to tackle the secong half of my promos. Ha ha. Everything is in school for this year is going to end soon. I can't wait longer. Please get myself done with these. I want holiday. I want to live the life I was living 2 months ago. (minus the school part) Ha ha. Know what I'm taking about? Few will know. I'm gonna work on my Accounts now. Bye!

等待雨停

下雨了。

等你的消息像等待雨停

潮湿的空气围绕着身体

轻轻的弄湿我的眼睛

不说也不提我感冒的心

坚强的外衣要如何脱去

也许你从来没动心

不愿意分享我的情绪

把你轻轻放在心里

心中却下起雨

灰灰的天气

想你常常的思念你

淹没我的勇气

如何说出喜欢你

我等待雨停

雨怎么会停。 不会的。

想到你

你或许不懂害怕是什么

说过的承诺却如此不在意

我无助的忏斗

只剩寂寞

安静的等候

或许你也会一个人

偷偷想念我和你

那么单纯的时候

每当我想到你

我的心就在哭泣

张开了眼睛

想到全是你

每当我想到你

心就会喘不过气

是否能告诉自己

我真的失去

Dreaming I Was Dreaming

Dreaming I was dreaming, dreaming I was dreaming.

I'm so lonely.

无所谓的 真心诚意的 手牵手吧！

即使一点点也好 真的一点点就好

Dreaming I was dreaming, dreaming I was dreaming.

You will rescue me. Will you?

笑一个吧！ 好吗？

Wine In Cup / I Need Time

"Your cup will not be empty,

because I will be your wine." Such a nice thing to be heard from someone close to you. I have my cup here, so dried up and empty. Who will be my wine? Who will fill it up? To be more exact. Who can fill it up? does my size and shape of my cup suit your type of wine? It's so dry now...empty. I long to be filled not any but this. Yet, I can see it contained nicely in a better cup. So nice in view, but hurting to me. So, my cup just stay there, remaining dry, clean, but cracking. Guess any wine in there will just be leaked out. No wine can be filled now. My cup will be a useless thing.

I may not be dead. My heart is still beating. What's with that ache? What's with that ache in there?! I don't like the feeling. It's really hurting me. I wanna stop all these. How? I think my tears will still remain flowing even if I'm dead. But I'm not crying now. Because I don't have time to. The pain is already taking time away from me. Time is precious now. I can't lose it.