Dream Talk

I was over at Kenny's place when I called Waterfall to check on her. Just wanted to know whether she was asleep already. Indeed, she was waken up by my call.
She started saying things that she didn't even realise to me.

Waterfall: wo3 jie1 shou4 wo3 jie1 shou4 wo3 jie1 shou4 jie1 shou4 jie1 shou4. wo3 zhuo2 tian1 zuo4 cuo4 le. jie1 shou4 wo3 jie1 shou4

Oh my god... What was she saying man... I kept saying "huh"
Well, she realised it eventually when she became more awake. *FAINT*
Dream talk...

Dream talk, like my previous post. Typing them out has made me feel a little better. I'm so clueless about how I'm feeling now. Even I don't know myself. The things I have written there might be too strong. I'm a human after all. I know I'm strong, but periods of misery are definitely inevitable sometimes.

I think there are so many doubts that are yet to be cleared. I can only say I'm in a total mess.
What situation am I in?
Where do I stand?
What have those got to mean, the things occured.
I have no idea...

I'm standing up, but I need some answers. I understand that sometimes things just happen like that. There isn't really a need for answers. Or maybe there ain't even any answers to be given. Some things can never be made clear.
What I need is just a respond.
An understanding about my feelings.
A guide.
A hug.

You slashed me apart. Bloody human.

Human changes, like you. So fast, you're a harzard.
You stopped treating me like how you used to treat me.
You stopped calling me names like how you used to call me.
You stopped being sweet like how you used to.
You stopped doing things you used to do.
And why did all these happen in the first place?
Bloody hell.

Sometime I just feel like tossing you around, like what Xuu Chun Mei's (Taiwan's no. 1 beauty) fiance had exactly done to her. Injured and disfigured. I can't actually. Where can I find that evil strength in me. I'm just too nice to be a threat. I don't bear to.

What craps are there with supporting roles and leading roles? Hell them all. I have just made myself a loser. A total loser.

People have limited energy. I'm not an exception. I'm using up my energy and time on you. I don't want to, but reality forces me to.
I can only wish you a better journey ahead. A better sky for your kite.

This song is playing in my mind now, and for the past few days as well.

街角的祝福


其实我不想听你口中的他有多好。
我只好假装我听不到。
我再也不想问，也不想被通知到。
反正你的世界我管不了了。

I don't want to bother anymore.

I wanna break free from this shit.

I don't want you to be in my life.

I just don't have that kind of space to take everything in with an open heart.

I'm just feeling sad because everything turned upside down within just a short period of time. We don't seem the same now. I guess you aren't really aware about the discomfort I'm having currently.
I wanna break free, I wanna forget about all the things you have done.
...
......
.........
Actually, I don't want to...
but I hate missing you...
I hate it...

Friday Night Out

This week was rather messy for me. The days were so unplanned and I was down with sickness. Sigh sigh... Anyway, I'll make the coming week a much better one for myself.

Let me recall my outing with the guys 1 week ago. The 4 young men were out together for yet another gathering. Think I was feeling really tired and was also feeling depressed then. A very very mild one though. Didn't bother to talk a lot. We had our dinner at Thai Express which food portion couldn't even fill half of my stomach. Had to even steal Kenny's food. He was more than willing I guess, cos he wasn't hungry at all.

We shopped around after dinner, and we ended up in Sky Garden, my first time there. We found a nice place to sit down for some chats. I took out my phone for... ha ha ha. I couldn't bear to not use the bright spotlight there.
Tengyi wasn't in this set of pictures. I shall feature him later.

Coffee Club followed after, and we headed to the "dao hua" shop after that for our supper.The day ended at a super late hour. Super super late. We all had to take nightriders home. I sincerely want to thank them for helping me to locate the bus-stop which has my bus home. Such caring buddies.

These two guys walked me all the way to the bus-stop. Ha ha so nice. Kenny had to go home first because he needed to rest early for the next day's activities. Actually, I owe Kenny a lot... He never failed to be a great buddy (minus off all his bad deeds). Well, he's after all one of my coolest buddies.

I felt like a kid again that day. I think sometime it's good to be the youngest in the group. Ha ha... You get all the good treatments.

Aiya. . . Tengyi ah... Featuring his halved face. LOL~~~

4 Guys Club + 1 Becomes 2

New clique formed. Tell me who's the most charming of all. Wah ha ha ha!!! No choice! No hesitation! Must be me! Wah ha ha ha!!!


Splitted myself into two.
Wang Shao Wei according to the girls. -_-
I think these are nice pictures.

Many reasons, many things.
Many season, many scenes.
If we close our eyes...
And remember to shine.

I Love Bigg Mama

Special Appetizer Platter prepared exclusively by Kenny's cousin, the Bigg Mama.
Re-invented.
Fabulous food.
Affordable price.
Certainly a worth food trip.
Will be going there again in a couple of weeks' time.

TRF - JOY

Joy for you and me...
I was only 12+ then.
A very emotinal song, which arouses many of my thoughts and feelings.
Enjoy...
All the best...TRF...

Put my records on...

I hate to be like some of the supporting roles. The whole image of it is so ugly and unwanted. So bad a feeling. You know... there would be leading roles in a set of drama, then there would always have this little unimportant role who always do not manage to get what he/she wanted and always get himself/herself kicked off. The person would then start his/her own little drama by doing all sorts of stupid things (crying, messing, harming others and stuff). Not that I will harm people, but still, that kind of ugly role sucks. I hate that, and I'm always given that role to play! Damn!

I wanna be in control of my life. I want a role, a leading role of my own big show.

Oh well, something to reflect on:

Maybe sometimes, we got it wrong, we felt afraid, but it's alright.
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
Don't you think it's strange?
I'm gonna put my records on.
Sing my favourite song.
I'm gonna find myself, somewhere, somehow.

Super Duper National Day Part IV

Oh man... Thanks again to the uploading problem. This post took me more than a week to complete. What the hell... Alright, this will be the last post for National Day Special, my long long story. Tsk. . . and so, I stayed over at Kenny's place that night. The night was rather uncosy for me. Couldn't get myself to sleep and I even had problem breathing properly. So different... Kenny was sleeping like a corspe there, and I was more like a living dead, tossing and turning on the mattress. So, I played the role of a living dead from 2am. all the way to the bright morning. FAINT*

Surprisingly, I didn't feel very sleepy and tired. Weird, or that was just me. Always so energetic.At the bus-stop in Buona Vista, heading to NUS. Living dead in the street.

Living dead needed some fresh tasty human flesh. This particular one likes arms and boners. LOL...

Soon, we had to head to NUS to meet up with Jasper for his medical appointment there. Bidding came after that, when we had to look for a nice place with computers to settle down, so that they could bid the courses they intended to study.

Goh Pah Ji Snia! Goh Pah Nen Snia! Goh Pah Sa Snia! HUAT AH!!!!!!

Getting a little bored. Took some pictures and collasped after, on one of the computor desks. Sian... Bidding in NUS can be such a headache.

I had my lunch at the Arts canteen, my favourite canteen of all. Nice Jap food, and a lot more. Jasper was unlucky. Of all the time, his orientation group decided to had their meals at that time, that place. So suay... How Jasper reacted was rather entertaining. Naughty boy...

After a light lunch, we headed to Clementi Swimming Complex. Swim Swim Swim, and got muscle cramp!!! Wah~~~pain... Thanks Kenny for the short massage. Both of them completed their laps. So good... I will have to do ample warm up next time round. My poor leg.

Had another meal again at the hawker and pool time came. Series of pictures...

3 guys club

Double J

Having fun.Chiong AH!!!

I was the weakest link of course. Seldom play pool. Kenny is a pro. Jasper plays decently well. The day ended with that. Feeling tired and empty. The start of turmoil... again at the point of the year. Just like last year.

Settlers Moment

Jasper, Kenny, Pei & I :)

Super Duper National Day Part III

Hooray!!! National Day... Happy Birthday Singapore. You're as young as my dad. Hee. . . National Day night was simply cool. Persuaded Pei to go settlers with me. Demanded by the 2 guys. Hur hur hur... Hope Pei didn't regret going. No, she shouldn't. 3 cute guys around her. She must had been feeling really lucky. Wah ha ha...

Ok back to main story, and so, we went to Settlers Cafe that night. Reached there slightly earlier. So, Pei and I went to mac first because I was feeling hungry. Didn't eat a lot back at home. Had a set meal at mac which was like a slice of cake for me. Not full one...sobs... ha ha crap. Soon, the 2 guys reached Clarke Quay station and went straight to the cafe to wait for us. Was feeling excited again. Even more excited than the previous day, cos Pei was with me. Yea. . .such a weird combi, but I like it.

Soon after, we were all sitting together, choosing the package. Kenny, the big man made all decisions. Ha ha. . .good to have him around. Yea. . .and we started playing. We began with Blockus, which Pei and I knew how to play. Kenny and Jasper got the hang of it very quickly. I love that game. Probably my favourite. Here are some of the other games we played that day.

Dragon Delta. We got the rules all mixed up. Aiya...would be very fun if we had played it right.

Blackmail... All about money talks... Give me your money if not I will post your nude pictures online!!! Ha ha ha...

That was the first time I had so much fun with Jasper, cos usually we don't really know what to do when we were out. Kenny was needed to make everything right. Yea. . . and I was glad that Pei treated them like her own friends. Ha ha was getting really comfortable with everyone. I was so delighted. Yup... Kenny was pretty fun too. Had never seen that side of him before. I like that.

We left the place at 11 p.m. as they were closing the place. We took a few pictures together, so that Pei could head back home. (Her mum was calling already x_x) I knew that I wouldn't be able to catch my bus if I went off with Pei, gotta take train instead. Ended up staying over at Kenny's place cos he decided to be nice to me again. Well, Jasper couldn't come along as he had some stuff he needs to bring to NUS the next morning. Yea. . .so we headed our way home. While we were on our way back, Kenny thanked me for organising that. I felt so appreciated. Wee...

I would say that the outing was a success. Now, I'm missing the moment we were sharing already.

Soon after we reached home, I started taking crazy pictures while Kenny was chatting online. Used him as a prop. LOL! Shall show you guys when I get them.

Super Duper National Day Part II

School's celebration finally ended. I made my way to Kenny's place. As I was feeling sick the previous day, I thought of resting at his place instead of heading back home and going out again. I would be having a fun night with Kenny and Jasper that day. Me, being excited, headed straight to Kenny's place. I need to thank Maira for showing me the way to the berth where I can take a bus to Kenny's creep. Nice of her. Saw him fetching me at the bus-stop. Ha ha, damn glad. A bit of awkward moments and I was going fine soon after. Did a whole lot of things at his place... crazy things. So much about resting huh? LOL!!! Well, I shall not tell you guys all about it.

Just look at the pictures k. I put up pictures of some girls too. Don't want it to look gay. Opps. . . Kenny was being really nice. I got the honour to try his cooking. Ha ha. . . My type of food, noodles with ham and lots and lots of veggies. Wee... I'm a well treated guest indeed. Really treated me to a lot of "things". I didn't spend any dollar that day. Everything was on him. Damn nice la. Thank you Kenny. (He wants me to talk good about him actually.) Tsk tsk... Shall not expose his evil side.

You know...good times usually pass like swift wind. Jumped a few times, and that will be hours gone. Time to dress up and meet Jasper. I was kenny's fashion consultant for that day. Ha ha... He's damn vain la... took so long to decide on what to wear. Vainity to the MAX. Ha ha :P Took about an hour and we were both ready to hit the streets.

WE were quite late for the outing. Sorry Jasper. Anyway, that was the first time Kenny and Jasper met. Was kinda like introducing them to each other. I didn't have to do much job though, because Kenny was being such a friendly person. He kept talking and talking...you wouldn't feel bored if you were there. Ha ha. So, I just relaxed and watched them having their conversation. Oh. . . so entertaining.

We had dinner at Noodle Bab at Millenia Walk. There were a few Asian cuisines there to choose from. Nice jap food they were serving. Talked a lot about NS stuff. Was listening to their experiences. Hmm. . .just hope to go through that fast and get it over and done with. Well, as expected, Kenny took the job of starting conversations and stuff. . . All to him, I just sat back and relaxed and listened. Oh, I wasn't allow to eat curry. Damn... Felt like a small kid. Hee. . .

Went to watch firework after dinner. Super crowded and hot. A very beautiful firework indeed. Maybe it was because of the songs, or the people's "wowing", or my friends beside, or the thought of how my life has evolved and come to this point of time and state, or a mixture of all the above, I was kinda touched by the experience. Aroused strong feelings man...and something nice happened throughout the firework. Wee... thank you... you know it.

Ok time to look at another set of pictures.

I was hungry soon after the firework has ended. Kenny decided to treat us all Swensens. Yeah!!! Ice cream for me. He he... Had earthquake and fries. Satisfied. This set features spastic Kenny with his glazed cherry. Jasper was trying to prevent me from taking picture of him eating ice cream. I suceeded in the end. Ha ha. Too bad...A picture of Jasper and I, feeling good after an ice cream feast. Once again, thank you kenny for the treat. The day ended pretty well with that. Woo hoo... A fun eve for me. The fun had not ended yet. Cos we will be going to settlers cafe the following night, and this time with Pei too.

Arghh~~~

I can't post pictures!!! This blog is really giving me problem. Gonna talk about my 3 days fun from the eve of National Day to Post National Day for the coming posts, after I get rid of the photo uploading problem. Alright, come back again yea.

Super Duper National Day Part I

Wow...coming to an end of the exciting National Day madness. 3 days of absolute fun man. So happy, yet so guilty. Shall only study for the weekends. I'll be talking about my three days' outings with the gang in the coming post/s. For now, let's look at some of the pictures I've taken in school on the eve of National Day with fellow Millennians.
Ignatius commented on my previous previous blog that I only showed his hair. I shall show your big big face here.

Creatures of Amazon World

Creature ????
Scorpion Prince???

Queen of Bee Mama
The moment.
JW Mobs

Millennians

Here I shall feature Tessa, Intan, Ignatius,
and me of course. I'm the star. Tsk tsk tsk...

Moving on to Aug.

2nd of Aug - I was looking for Jasper's birthday present. Didn't know what to buy. Wallet? Slippers? Top? ????? Pei accompanied me around and we shopped all the way from Bugis to Suntec. Ha ha. Had lunch at Carl's Jr. Nice!!!

Sigh...Kenny called earlier saying he was sick and was feeling terrible. Well, glad that he's feeling fine now. Miss hanging out with him sia. Well, didn't manage to find something nice for Jasper. Failure!!!

3rd of Aug - Met up with Pei again at BPP. My part time girlfriend indeed. Always being someone available for me to have dinner with. So cool. Received the year book for 2005 in school, and spotted myself on the cover of the book. Oh my god, I'm going famous. I looked extremely weird there though. It was a shot of me doing one of the challenging part of last year's SYF dance item. Of all the people, they had to choose me to be on the cover. Yucks. . .

4th of Aug - Another day of hanging out with Kenny, my shaved head nice friend. Had dinner at Carl's again and a long long chat after that. Was really enjoying my time with this cool friend. A good Friday ending.

5th of Aug - Brought Pei along to meet up with Jasper. Ha ha. Never expected this to happen. So glad to see Jasper, cos I haven't been seeing him for almost 2 months. Yea. . .he's getting busy. So, I guess I will be seeing him less often when his school starts. Well, we had our dinner at Billy Bombers. Cool!

Can say we are 3 quiet persons. Ha ha. Just thought about it.

6th of Aug - Party World fun with Pei and Yim.

Did some really crazy stuff in the KTV room. Shall not disclose. Tsk tsk.. Had a nice lunch after at Clementi hawker and went back home straight after to finish my weekend assignments.

Argh...feeling so sick now, and tomorrow will be Natinal Day celebration in school. Hope I'll be better. Anyway, I can't wait for tomorrow to come because I'll be having an exciting outing tomorrow. Shall rest over at Kenny's place tomorrow after school before heading out together to meet Jasper for dinner. Yeah...I hope it will turn out fine. Getting them to know each other yea... Ha ha, talking about meeting new friends. I have always like meeting new friends. It just seems so fun to know more people introduced by your own good friends. I shall update you guys about tomorrow more in days to come.

Where's my (old) Boon Tong Kee?!!!

Look at this...so foreign... For those who used to frequent Boon Tong Kee, do you really like the new concept?

The portion of the food was smaller than before and there's so little space for movement. So crammed. Not to forget about them serving homemade barley drink in wine glasses. I know there's nothing wrong about that, just miss the old Boon Tong Kee, where they served big big portion of chicken meat. Ha ha.Look at this girl...So puzzled looking. ('''-_-) (-_-''') Sian ah...