Unstable

Unstable, unstable, unstable relationship. Is this what I want? I'm a bit pissed off today. What's coming between us? I'm told that we should officially date each other. I don't feel it. No, I should make a choice. To leave or to stay...on this unstable boat. To save myself of unspeakable sorrow, or to sink and drown with the boat. Unstable it is. Boat. Love. SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOBBB!!!!!!!!!!

National Day performance practice

We are one Singapore
One nation strong & free
A thousand different voices sing in harmony

Deep in my heart I just know
Right from the start we will grow
Look where we are we've come so far
And there's still a long long way to go

Being singing these two songs for the whole day for performance purpose at Cresencis's house. Had fun directing, and not forgetting the tremendous amount of food I have eaten there. Cleared food her mum cooked. Finally completed and tomorrow will be the audition. Have to teach the rest tomorrow morning. Sleep sleep sleep.

Packed day today.

I'm so busy today, and sleepy too. Slept for 3 pathetic hours previous night. Maple story again. i had been sleeping during lessons today. Ha ha. Parent's night today in school, and I still have to travel to Toh Tuck myself for dance training. Then, I found that the instructor was not there. Shit man. Watched the SYF Dance DVD instead. I love SAJC's dance item, so upbeating with those umbrallas. RJC, VJC, HCI, CJC, AJC were good too. Finally, I got to watch TJC's dance item. hahahahahahaha. Cute costumes, but made those big size girls looked bigger. Cool male dancer, the ang mo guy. Can ask jx about it. hahahahahaha.

Just came back from parent's night. Luckily teachers did not really make my life miserable. However, attendance 91/113. Absent for 22 days. Wow. Have to work harder this time to improve my grades for promos.

Lost......Free

I'm lost in love. I think i lost it actually. Knew it wouldn't last. Didn't want it to anyway. It was just a tiny chapter, a game. I'm tired. I have to let go. Damn it!

Being single, has it own good, although the problem of loneliness will haunt you back. At least, complication is insignificant. Love, love, love. 我感觉不到。

Parent's night tomorrow. Kinda excited. Crazy.

My form teacher had been calling me for two days. I did not answer, was sleeping. It's about attendance. Haiz... and I'm not in school today again.
Kinda relieved that I just only failed Management, which I did not attempt. Yeah 2 As 2 AOs. I think my results can somehow cover up for poor attendance. Let's see this saturday.
I'm a little worried about the attendance issue. Not sure what will happen. And Iggy, I want my big big meal when I get back to school, and that will most certainly be tomorrow!!!(He lost. hahaha). Angela and I will going to enjoy free food and drinks.(He lost to both of us.) Both of us always bully him like nobody business. He's fun to fool with. Don't be sad ok, you still have the next round, which is the promos to fight. Don't lose again. We should add new contestants to stir up the fun and competitiveness.
Also, I hereby declare that if I cannot get a grade A for my Accounting, I'm not Jesmen, the Dieux. Can't stand it!
I know you guys also want to be the cream of the crowd. Work hard! Be smart. If not, act smart(for Iggy). We must do it, and be the top top top!!!

Whole day of fun and shitting!

Today was a 'have fun & no study' day for me and my other two classmates. We went Sunlight City at Orchard for a KTV session. On our way there to meet Stacy, a lady approached Lynn near somerset MRT station. Model International. Hu hu. After the conversation, we continue walking, and another lady approached us again. Model International again, and this time the lady was talking to me. This was what she said, "you look handsome. can you leave your name and contact number?" So, I did so. Everytime like that one. They are blind, because I have been asked for many times at the same place, different day. Ok everyone, 1 2 3, puke!!! Yah, puke together at the same time. Nice view. We sang hard, posed hard when taking photo prints, eat hard at Mache` and the taiwanese eating place, shop hard, and gossip even harder. Whahaha. So fun today, but me and Lynn kept shitting. Both of us drank that peppermint milk thing at KTV, and after that, we started shitting all day long. With different colour even. Can you believe it? It's green, GREEN! Both of us. Green!!! Our favourite colour. How nice to shit like this. Ok, 123 puke, puke for the second time. I'm so tired now. Played a little wild today. I don't want to be a model. I prefer to work at newurbanmale.com.

Back to normal routine/ Beauty pageant in school

Finally, I'm back dancing. Haven't been doing my stretching for a month. I'm getting worse. However, I'm really back to my 1 week 6 hours routine. I'm gonna dance dance, and DANCE till the world terminates.
Been help our class representatives also for the Racial Harmony Beauty Pageant thing. My class wanted me but I was reluctant. Just wanted to really sit back and be an audience this time, as I have represented my class last year. Also, I like to help them in their catwalking and stuff. It feels good to see people perform through my teaching. Sense of satisfaction! Tomorrow will be a fun day I think, becauce I will be seeing them walk for the last time before the competition, plus I will be styling Shu Jian's hard to tackle hair, and +++++++. Interesting. People are telling me that Shu Jian is too stiff when catwalking. I'm gonna drill him through this. Be more flexible and he will have no problem shaking up girls when playing rugby with them on bed. No matter what, I'm gonna have a hard time tomorrow morning. hehehe...

Addiction

Oh god! Maple Story is so nice to play. I'm addicted. I will recommend this to people who need to destress. Fun fun fun. So fun. Be a swordman, a magician, a archer, or a thief. Woah! I can't stop playing. Fatal addiction!!! Everyone, play!!! and forget about studies!!!







Study is still important...

DON'T PLAY WITH YOUR FOOD!!!!!!

I can't stand people playing the food they cannot finish. Especially those RICH IDIOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please Grow Up! You are just taking all this precious food that third world country don't get to eat for granted. You are so low down in person. I look down on you! Childish!

3rd day of exam and fun day at Orchard

Wow! A level Chinese oral is finally over. I can just say goodbye to it. "Bye bye Chinese oral, see you in my next life!" Accounting paper was tough today, though I told everyone it was like chicken feet when asked. Just couldn't bother to answer them properly, maybe I was just trying to show a proud and confident me. I left one of the six question totally blank. It was asking about accounting principles. Although 14 marks will be gone, I am still sure that i will pass. Hah! The activity coming right after all these stressful fights was a total madness that involved whole lot of fun. It was SHOPPING AT ORCHARD!!! Since we don't have papers tomorrow, Lynn, Fern and I decided to invade Orchard and clear off all the good stuff there(just being crazy). We shop and shop for some full 6 hours, non-stop. Went to MNG countless time because of the two girls. I fell in love with an Adidas T-shirt found in Pacific Plaza and the Mickey Mouse apparels. Found out from the sales girl that the men's apparels are located at Bugis Junction. I have to buy all of them as soon as I can, probably by next week. He he, trying to revert to my innocent days wearing Mickey Mouse clothes. Oh god! To conclude, today was torturous at the first part of the day, but enjoyable and crazy at the second part, cos we were all fooling around, been crazy along the streets of Orchard. Ok, I can have more fun after next Monday. Tomorrow will be another 'kiasu' day for me, as I will be 'chionging' my Economics MCQ and Partnership(another devil).

Everyone, wish me good luck............can you guys please be louder..................................I still can't hear you guys............ok never mind. (super duper lame, need mobility-aiding equipment)

The second day...reckoning day

Today's Economics Paper 3 was amazing. I had a tough time completing it, but I felt good because I knew what I was doing. I'm not going to fail this.

I finally talked to Shu Jian today after a cold war of so many months. Just feel sorry for everything that had happened. "If you don't mind, let's be friend again!" As if he will see this. Hah.

He hasn't called me for a few days...TJC(you know who you are), is this the end?

First day of Mid-Year Examination

Just came back from school. Still feeling sick. My voice has changed, throat infected again. I thought it has just recovered, and oral will be on Wednesday. Oh my god! Chinese papers were alright. Management paper 2 was a gone case. I didn't bother to study Management anyway. Guess I'm going to fail this. My bet is only placed on Accounts and Economics. I will not let the devil of failure beat me this time. I'm going to make it. Ok, morale getting up finally. I always have to go through some warm-up period before I can start working well. I just cannot take a break, or else I will go back to the slacking stage. Gonna do my last revision for my Economics today.

Not Prepared

Examination will finally be starting tomorrow. I'm already looking forward to the end of it. I'm not prepared for my Management paper, not at all. Economics is tough to understand. Accounts is getting on my nerves lately. How can I ever suceed. Seems like the result this time will be like shit, but I will try to make it better. There can be miracle, when you believe. I will try, at least. Gonna take a rest now and face the week, starting from TOMORROW.

Losing You

看你穿过云端飞的很高
在那山上的我大声叫
也许你呀不会听到
把梦想找到
要活的更好

Seems like I'm losing you...

Clad...be cladded

Feeling confused now. What took him so long? Why isn't he calling? Is this a hint?

Feeling lost now. What's happening? I'm like this. That's why my life is like this. I still have my last chance...now

Feeling aimless now. What am I doing here? Isn't I suppose to be study? Exams is on Monday! Wake up guy!

Feeling drowsy now. It is caused by those medcines. They are not working. I'm still feeling sick.

I just wanna be cladded...cladded with what I need the most.

"I thought you wanna beat all those idiots in class. What are you doing??? Wake up!!! You sure don't want to be sorry right??? Wake up and start now or you will definitely be sorry!!!!!!"

Darkness-死者的呼唤

我张开眼睛 只看见黑暗
我用力呼吸 却没有空气
我想伸开手 动都不能动
现在才发现我死了
如此孤单 世界忘记了我
这一切都怪我 放弃自己
腐烂的肉潮湿的空气和尸体
快放我出去

One last post for now, since I have to wait for Pei Zhen to get ready.
I'm a corpse...

A Temporary Stop

Exam will be coming in just three days time. So, i will not be blogging for the next today onward till the day after the exam. For my materials on the theme "Darkness", please wait till i come back and share more of it with you. Anyway, thank you Gabriel for giving me your precious time and praying for me. It is very much appreciated. Its just that i don't seem to open my heart to christ. Yah. . . but really thank you.

Going for lunch with Pei Zhen now. . .

Sick & Absent

Oh my god. . .I'm so sick. Have been missing from school lately. So tired and low morale. Please don't mess everything up again. You will be sorry Mr. Stade!

Darkness-无力

如果是颜色 我是黑色的
如果是天气 我是下雨的
如果是朵花 我是枯萎的
谁会在乎呢 管他的
如果是土地 我是荒凉的
如果是阵风 我是微弱的
如果是回忆 我是遗忘的
谁会在乎呢 管他的

My world is dark. . .I'm lost. . .and helpless.

Love Bite

You gave it to me, my countless time of love bites.
I, with no choice accepted it through your strong thrust.
The seemingly stubborn me, under your beast force, turned into a powerless rabbit.
I was a prey in your bed.
The love bite at my left chest started it all.
I was bleeding to your devouring.
I was a candy.
The love bite is fading. . .
Like your love dying. . .

I'm So Sick

My throat is currently in disaster. Oh no! GCE A Level Chinese Oral is approaching! Die die must recover. I cannot really sing also, my friends will be damn lucky. They can temporary get some peace as they will not have to go through my never-ending & torturous singing sessions. So sianz, have to control myself for a feel days, so that i can recover fast and continue singing. lalalalalalalalalahahahahahahahaha. . . . . . . .

Most likely reasons that had caused my throat to well. . . explode.
1- the durain feast three days ago
2- someone's infected saliva(arghhh)
3- the all day/late night role of a wolf, waiting for my prey(Pei Zhen should know this)
4- insufficient sleep

Today after school, I went to the canteen(with the dying throat), wanting to have a meal. The variety was so limited that I had no choice but to eat spicy stuff. So, I ordered rice with side dishes(all spicy). I was thinking that maybe I could use the 以毒攻毒 method. Chilli versus bacteria. Fight, fight and fight, then maybe my throat will be saved and I can sing again. I ended up with a throat that more painful. Oh worse! 以毒攻毒 method had no use. . .Sad. . .Have to rely on medicine now.

I'm so sick now. Cannot sing 你不在 & 爱如潮水. Also, since I'm sick, guess that I have to give my dick some rest. Been using it quite often nowadays. . .

Falling to the pool of Fs

Mid-year examinations will be approaching next week. Still slacking at home. I just don't feel the motivation to take out all my notes to study lately. I don't want the class to think that I'm stupid, I'm just a commoner. Maybe I think a little too much, but yah. . .this is the feeling I got when I was in class. Guess I have to get started now or I will be sorry. . . not to the class, but to myself. "What a waste of time!" Just hope that i can have a breakthrough for my Economics. Getting late now. . .gonna turn in soon. . .don't want to swim in the pool of Fs. . .

Monica. Very true.

Monica 你想到哪里啊?
我带你上我家去喝茶
你要来吗？
你想来吗？
我要你来
我要上床
You are my target
Why men don't listen?


A song named "Monica". Why everything has to be like this? Why do I always have to face with this kind of situation. 真衰！
I hate them!

Darkness-Neon Avenue

In the middle of neon avenue. Streets filled with crawling zombie.
Private...private. Tell me this is a private crime. The pounding, the
moaning. I'm devoured. 给我你的电话号码. Give it to me...in the
middle of neon avenue.

Lost virginity

I was a virgin 5 mins ago, and now I'm not. Refering to first time blogging lah. Don't think crooked. Finally! I can share all my crazy stuff with people at large hahahahaha! Thanks to Pei Zhen who was the one helping me to create this blog. She's actually making her life worse because i will definitely force her to read my posts regularly and put down comments. Oh, good luck to you Pei Zhen. My posts will be crazy. My first theme will be 'Darkness'. Look out for upcoming posts soon. I'm not a virgin now. . .I'm blogging. . .